Procrastination or Self-Care?
I’ve been tired lately, really tired. In fact some days I need to pull over and have a 10 minute rest before I can finish driving home. As I get older, I have noticed that my capacity to “burn the candle at both ends” has decreased dramatically. Not that long ago, I could work the day job, see a couple of private clients, and then study or do marketing until 10 or 11 at night. These days, not so much. Some nights, it’s all I can do to make dinner, tidy a bit, and get ready for the next day. I was thinking the other evening that I “should” get something done, and I started reflecting on whether I was procrastinating or if I was listening to my inner self - the one that was crying out for rest. And I started thinking about my feelings of guilt, that feeling of “not being good enough”, and feeling I always need to do more. I’m learning to stop being so hard on myself if I don’t get all the tasks done from my to do list. I’m learning that I need to pace myself a bit more than I used to. I’m learning that it’s okay to take a night or two off and just tune out and watch tv or read a book. But it’s hard to do that. There’s so much I want to get done in my life, and so much I want to learn, and so much I want to share with others. Then I realized that balance was something that I needed to learn. I still have no idea how to gain a better sense of balance in my life, between all the "shoulds" and the "must do's" and the "want to do's", but I think I'm doing better. I would love to hear how you balance all the different aspects of your life. What works for you and what doesn't?
