“How do you plan life?” is a quote from my favourite movie, ‘My Life In Ruins’ (If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend you do!) The main character, Georgia wants her life to be completely planned out, with no surprises or changes. That’s why another character in the movie says the line above to her. I’ve seen this movie about 100 times, and the scene where he asks her this question never really stood out to me - until the last time I watched it. I think it has to do with the fact that my life is in major transition right now, so the line catches my attention more than it used to.
Much like Georgia, I’ve always wanted to have a map of my life. To know the who, what, when, where, and whys of my future. To have control over every aspect of my life. That all came crashing down on me when my freshman year of university ended.
Long story short, Communications is a great program but not for me. Deciding to take some time off school to figure what I wanted to do was huge. Many of my friends were continuing in their studies; I had no idea what I was going to do next.
Cut to me moving to Niagara Falls from York Region (where I lived my whole life) the next year. I was away from my friends, my favourite spots, the ‘hub’ that is Toronto, and around the golden horseshoe. And between you and me, the mall in Niagara Falls has got nothin’ on Yorkdale!
And the boy I love… well, the timing is off for us right now.
So, yeah. My life is different than I predicted. And in my worst moments, I get sad about what my life has become. But, then I remember that things happen for a reason, and maybe things have fallen into place they way they did to lead me down a better path.
When I look at my life from a glass-half-full perspective, I realized that if I didn’t move to Niagara Falls, I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to meet my producer and create music that I was able to share with the world, or get the chance to adopt my cats! As for the boy I love, him and I both need to spend time working on ourselves, so we can come back together later, loving ourselves enough to love each other fully. And school? If I didn’t take time off to figure out what I want to do with my life, I wouldn’t have discovered my true passions, and that getting my degree is what I want and need to hone my craft.
My life is going exactly the way it should be, and everything that’s meant to happen will. Not when I necessarily want it, but when it’s supposed to.
Through everything that’s happened these past few years, I’ve learned – a lot. But the most important lesson I’m learning is, life doesn’t always turn out the way you planned… it can be better than you ever imagined.